Waltz of Love by Ernesto Cortázar II … a video that I received from my mom-in-law after I lost my brother (whom I lovingly call my Dada)… This is one of those songs that I absolutely loved yet could not gather enough strength to watch completely… This depicts our life so well that I could picture everything we’d been through together and now alone… Although this song is for a couple but I feel it applies to all the relationships, to all those who are bonded by real love.. siblings too.. This is for all of those who are missing their loved ones.
May you find some peace and some peart, may your tears help but not hurt… May it bring some memories that gives you strength and smile… and you are able to cope for life is long, it’s not just for a while… for us who are left behind…
Here are the words and the DANCE we did together… The sequence may be different but every verse tells our story.
We DANCED amongst the stars that night when joy had fallen far from sight… when we were separated for three long years during our childhood. I was 7 and you were 9 years old. It was not easy but we knew the purpose so took it without any complain..
We DANCED under the sun so bright And when all seemed lost We held on tight… One by one we lost our grandpa and grandma with whom we were so dearly attached.. I cried and you stayed strong… you were barely entering your teens yet you held my hand and wiped my tears.
We DANCED to the music of hummingbirds And we DANCED in the silence When there were no words… Those 3 years(when you were 12 and I was 10) after our reunion were the best of all. It felt like we were trying to make up for all those years of separation… I remember falling very sick and bedridden and always found you around each time I opened my eyes…
We DANCED in the shadows of fear and doubt And we DANCED when we questioned What life’s about… Then came the worst time of our lives.. We lost our dad to a car accident. You were barely 16. Those words of yours immediately stopped my tears… You said, “I have lost my dad too and I am not crying”… Then we both decided to be the strength for our mom. While I was still a daughter and a sister, you took on the role of a father for me… you grew up for me… you took all the responsibilities for me…
We DANCED amongst the evergreens That posed for painters winter scenes… Good times or bad, you never stopped playing with me, teasing me, irritating me through your silly cranks on me and loving me unconditionally…
We DANCED in the winters bitter chill And we DANCED our world stood still… Life after daddy left us was not easy.. We grew up seeing all our friends enjoying with their dads, we smiled and stayed strong for mom. All three of us took care of each other and never mentioned anything about daddy, fearing it might make other sad…
For that’s love was meant to be To find the DANCE when we cannot see… Together we could do anything. You always protected me even when you needed support…
To write a new song when the music stops With lyrics that caress every tear that drops… Your quirky ways would always give me smiles. You knew what would help me. Sometimes you played a song on brother-sister bond and other times you would make your own..
For when the rhythm changes and the tempo slowed We’re called to DANCE with the seeds we sowed… Once again, we were separated (physically). You went away for further studies as you knew that would help all three of us in the future. You had a big responsibility for the future. Then I left for my education. It was a tough time for all you, me and mom.. but we did it, hoping to be together again.. and we did! Then you gave me the most special gift of life, my sister in law who became the life of our family. Two nephews who added joy to our lives and then found a soulmate for me and send me away, far far away. You knew I was happy and so were you… Dada…
For life is hard there is no doubt But DANCING through it, is what life’s about… life continued, I gave you a little nephew and a cute niece. Mom was happy, our family was complete. Your wife and my husband brought more love and strengthened our family bond even better.. Just when we started to enjoy life, just when you were fulfilling your promises, just when mom started smiling… you left us forever… life is hard Dada, very hard without you… unimaginable… but I have to live to fulfill the responsibilities left behind… DANCING without you feels impossible Dada… I wish it was a dream, just a bad dream.. I wish one day my eyes will open and I will see you around…
This was our story, what is yours? Share it with me so we can understand and help each other…
There Were No Goodbyes... 