I want to scream so loud that I lose my voice… I want to hold so tight that I lose grip… I want to cry so hard that tears stop falling… I want to hug so big that I stop existing… I want to breathe and absorb so deep that I stop breathing… And IContinue reading “I Want…”
Author Archives: Ritz UB
“My Favorite…”
“You are everyone’s favorite, they love you more. You always get good things, like many toys, your favorite dish and their attention, I am always left ignored!” says the sister. Brother, whom she calls “dada” responds in a few words which makes her smile and forget all her concerns. He says, ” My little one,Continue reading ““My Favorite…””
The Little One!
“We are trying our best. Chances of her survival are very low, the infection is high and she is too young to handle it.” Said the doctors to the parents of a prematurely born baby girl. While the situation was pretty grim and sad, the condition was totally opposite at home. He was preparing theContinue reading “The Little One!”
Stay Strong?!?
“Its been more than a month now, come out of it and be strong.” This is what I hear from people all the time! I wish I could tell them that grief is very personal and it doesn’t have a time line or a time limit.. Only the one losing a loved one can understandContinue reading “Stay Strong?!?”
Pillar of Strength
“I can’t let you go, because you are the pillar of strength that will protect our family from any storm..” He always said this to his wife, my dearest sister in law.. Never did she imagine this will become the reality of her life one day.. He left her forever without saying goodbye… It feltContinue reading “Pillar of Strength”
Am I Selfish?
It was a text message that gave me the “news”… I am one of those very unfortunate sibling, a sister, who was far far away from the brother while he was suffering, fighting for his life. All I had was a phone. One by one, we were losing members in the family and he wasContinue reading “Am I Selfish?”
Waltz Of Love, Our Story…
Waltz of Love by Ernesto Cortázar II … a video that I received from my mom-in-law after I lost my brother (whom I lovingly call my Dada)… This is one of those songs that I absolutely loved yet could not gather enough strength to watch completely… This depicts our life so well that I could pictureContinue reading “Waltz Of Love, Our Story…”
Memories…
Its the first time, I spent one full month without talking to him… I am not mad at him this time.. I used to be. During our childhood, I used to be mad at him, so many times. I remember my parents saying, ” Keep your hands to yourself, use your voice not hands…” HeContinue reading “Memories…”
A loved one trying to accept the reality…
Death is such a punishment that stays with us forever.. things are left incomplete, unsaid, unfelt, incomplete… And when it is sudden, unexpected one if left with many “what ifs”. This is what happened with us as he left us all of a sudden… He used to say that “death of a loved one doesn’tContinue reading “A loved one trying to accept the reality…”
Time Doesn’t Heal Always…
In a few hours it will be a month… I remember the first day… 4:00am I was holding the phone in my hand as that was the only way I could stay in touch with him. I was alone, scared and worried.. I knew the condition was deteriorating, just a few hours ago, it wentContinue reading “Time Doesn’t Heal Always…”
There Were No Goodbyes... 